I ALMOST LOST MY FAITH TODAY, JUNE 5TH, 2012....GOD HAS SAVED ME FROM FALLING APART!

June 5th, 2012

" In the nick of time, GOD sent me a "message". And when I checked out that ''thing'' that GOD had told me to check out, I found out that I had enough funds for this car loan payment today, June 5th, 2012. "

This is what my Zodiac tells me today.

Capricorn
You may almost lose faith today, but see if you can keep pushing even if all looks lost. Your energy demands focus and commitment, and when you deliver, you can snatch victory from the jaws of defeat.

STORY BEHIND IT:
The sister of my hubby who came from Germany asked to be fetched in Bicol, to be exact, in San Jose, Camarines Sur on May 31st, 2012. Because of that, I needed to withdraw some amount of money for the diesel of our L300 Van. They promised to return the money to me before they flew back to Germany. But they went back yesterday, June 4th, 2012, to Germany without giving me back the money which they spent on their travel. She told me that she would send the payment after 2 weeks. They used my van without any payments, and the diesel of my own van was also shouldered by me. What a big burden to me! To think that they are Germans and they brag that they have very good lives in Germany with very good stuff, appliances, and houses. To hell with those, I need my money back.

Today is my last day of payment for my L300 Van which I got from a car loan. I had insufficient funds for that.

My other business partner, Motor Parts & Services, has not given me my gains properly. This person who came to me last year, 2011, because of his additional capital needs is soooooooooooooooo greedy, dishonest, and unreliable. I asked him to give me back the capital that I gave him because I don't wanna  deal with him anymore, but he's been promising to give me back soon. He said he would give every 15th and 30th of the month, but NOTHING AMONG HIS PROMISES HAS BEEN ACCOMPLISHED. WE HAVE AN AGREEMENT AND CONTRACT BUT HE HAS NOT FULFILLED ANY THAT HAS BEEN AGREED UPON BY US.

In the nick of time, GOD sent me a "message". And when I checked out that ''thing'' that GOD had told me to check out, I found out that I had enough funds for this car loan payment today, June 5th, 2012.

But before this ''message'' was sent to me by GOD, I wrote this in my diary, "TODAY IS THE END OF MY WORLD", due to the situation that I was into.


I'm not used to this kind of situation. I always wanna be sure of whatever I do. BUT WHEN PEOPLE COME TO ME AND ASK OR BEG FOR HELP FROM ME, THAT'S THE TIME THAT EVERYTHING IN MY LIFE BECOMES A MESS.


My friends on facebook wrote that I must NOT ALLOW PEOPLE TO RUIN MY LIFE. DOES THAT MEAN THAT I SHOULD BE DEAF ABOUT THE NEEDS OF OTHERS? That when people come to me for help, I MUST SAY "NO". IF I SAY "NO", THEN THAT MEANS I AM ALSO GREEDY, SELFISH, AND BAD, AND I DON'T FOLLOW THE WORDS OF GOD WRITTEN IN THE HOLY BIBLE.


BUT EVERY TIME I FOLLOW GOD'S WORDS, TEMPTATION COMES IN. I ALWAYS WANT TO FOLLOW MY GOD'S COMMANDS. BUT I DON'T WANNA HAVE PROBLEMS LIKE THIS, PROBLEMS CAUSED BY PEOPLE WHO RUIN ALL MY PLANS AND SCHEDULES.

I AM SOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO SAD THAT THERE ARE PEOPLE ON EARTH WHO AREN'T HAPPY SEEING SOMEONE LIKE ME LIVING IN A PEACEFUL MODE. THEY COME WITH STRONG WIND AND HURRICANES TO CREATE HAVOC AND DISASTERS IN MY LIFE.

THANKS BE TO GOD. HE ALWAYS SAVES ME FROM FALLING.

I HAVE BEEN FAILING THE LIFE TESTS.....

I was the valedictorian in our batch in high school.
I was a scholar from high school to my Master's Degree.
I always received the highest grade in all my exams.
Because I always had perfect scores, my teachers and professors decided NOT to give me the final exams, instead, I always became the proctor during the final exams in high school and in college.

When I graduated from my Bachelor's Degree, I supposed to be the second summa cum laude of the New Era University for I garnered the highest average a college student could ever have. 

BUT the New Era University DIDN'T GIVE ME THAT HIGHEST HONOR BECAUSE THE UNIVERSITY PRESIDENT THAT TIME SAID THAT THEY COULDN'T CHANGE THE SCHOOL POLICIES JUST TO GIVE ME THE HIGHEST HONOR WHICH I DESERVED BECAUSE I WAS A TRANSFEREE FROM THE PHILIPPINE NORMAL UNIVERSITY. So they just gave me the GLORIA MACAPAGAL ARROYO EXCELLENCE AWARD IN 1994, the year when I graduated from college.


I also passed the FIRST LICENSURE EXAMINATION FOR TEACHERS in 1996 without any reviews and without any rests. I was teaching at the New Era University, College of Business Education and Administration that time from 7 in the morning till 7 in the evening. I was a university adviser of the NEU-National Drug Education Program, and I was also a member of the Section 7 team of the Acreditation Program. In addition, I was very active in my church duty that time. As a member of the choir, I needed to attend to all my church duties every time I needed to perform. I didn't have time to review for the Teachers' Board Exam. But I passed it with flying colors. In fact, my license was forwarded to the New Era Public High School. But they returned it to me because I was already with the NEU-CBEA that time.

To make the story shorter, I promised my self to do good also when my GOD would give me ''life tests''. Because I did good in all my exams, I must also pass the life tests and trials that my GOD would be giving me on my way to my soul's salvation.


JUST A WHILE AGO, I FELT THAT I WAS GOING BACK TO MY OLD CHARACTER. WHEN I WAS A CHILD, I USED TO TELL MY MOM THAT IF SOMEONE THREW A STONE ON ME, I SHOULD THROW A BOULDER ON HER....BUT LAST YEAR, I PROMISED MYSELF NOT TO DO THAT ANYMORE BECAUSE I SAW HOW LIFE HAS BEEN  TOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO SHORT ON EARTH AND I SAW HOW I AM BLESSED AND LOVED BY THE GOD ALMIGHTY. SO AS A ''PAY BACK'', THOUGH I KNOW I CAN'T PAY ANYTHING BACK TO OUR GOD BECAUSE EVEN MY LIFE COMES FROM HIM, I PROMISED OUR GOD THAT I WOULD TRY TO BE MORE DOWN-TO-EARTH....BUT AS I PROMISED TO DO THIS, THE MORE PEOPLE WANNA PULL ME DOWN AND THE MORE THEY STEP ON ME, HURT ME, AND RUIN MY LIFE....NOW, WHAT WOULD I DO?....

YESTERDAY, A TEACHER IN SOMEWHERE, I DON'T KNOW IF SHE'S REALLY A TEACHER, SHOUTED AT US BECAUSE OF OUR VAN AND OUR MOTORCYCLE WHICH WERE RIGHTFULLY PARKED IN THE PARKING AREA OF THIS BUILDING. THERE WAS NO PROBLEM FROM OUR SIDE...BUT THIS TEACHER CALLED THE OWNER OF THE BUILDING AND SHOUTED ALL AROUND TO TELL THE WHOLE WORLD ABOUT OUR VAN AND OUR MOTORCYCLE WHICH WERE PARKED RIGHTFULLY IN THE PARKING AREA OF THIS BUILDING..... SATAN  IS REALLY STRONG AND INFLUENTIAL. NOW, OUR VAN AND MOTORCYCLE ARE STILL PARKED IN THE SAME AREA WHERE THEY WERE PARKED BEFORE THE INCIDENT HAPPENED.


I don't wanna look down on people. I ALSO WANNA PASS THE TESTS OF LIFE. I NEED TO GET A GRADE THAT'S MUCH HIGHER THAN THE GRADES THAT I GOT FROM MY SCHOLASTIC STANDING AND PERFORMANCES.


MAY GOD HELP ME TO PASS HIS TESTS SO I CAN WORTHY OF HIS ETERNAL PROMISES.

IN SOLITUDE......

HAPPY AND SWEET THURSDAY WITH YOUR SPECIAL PET

 

To all my ever loving and supportive friends, this greetings is for you. May you enjoy your Thursday with your special pet.

My Maltese pet died on April 14th, 2012 at 00:00 hour. He actually started breathing with difficulty after he was given three shots of steroids, antibiotics, and vitamins on April 13th. It was not a good day for me and for my pet, Cedie.

 

My Thursdays were very happy because my Cedie and I always played after my church duty in the morning.

Tomorrow is Thursday again. I have to wake up very early at 2 in the morning for my church duties. I will be back here to my place again without my Cedie. Only emptiness waits for me here.

But, I have to move on, keep on living, and follow what GOD has planned for me.

Before I cry a river, I wanna send this greetings to all of you. May GOD be with you wherever you may be today and always!